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Tuesday, July 11th, 2006
7:04 pm	Love is in the Air Well as most of you know I'm home from Disney and its been a torcher trying to find a job since its summer and all the jobs are taken already, ive just been pleading and pleading. But anyway, Ive been going out to sandees almost every saturday since ive been home. My friend tt and I dyed our hair one night and wanted to go out to show it off, so we did. And low and behold i madeout with 7 guys whom i all knew. lol Anyway on to my subject of why Love is in the air...Im sure most of you know who schmitty is. I know that he dated melissa and she said some shit about him, so i never really got to know him. but now that we hang out with him, ive come to realize he's a really great guy. He's so sweet, and caring and hes funny and just a hoot to be around. I really like him alot. the other day we went to a bonfire with some our friends and i met some new ones, it made me get to know him even more and im glad i did cause we have a lot in common and i like that. I asked him how he felt about me and he said that he liked me a lot too, so we're both on the same page as in not going to jump into anything just yet, but see where this goes with us. I love hanging out with him and all of the potential guys i want to date are already taken, so we'll have to see what happens. Tell me what you guys think...ahhh *bats eyelashes* Current Mood: flirty Current Music: TV (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006
1:44 am	Relationships with Men I can't believe im going to say this, but I hate boys. I really do sometimes. I know im overally obsessed with them, but seriously do they have to be so picky and stubborn? Sometimes i think that they are just like us girls. As most of you know peter and i broke up due to a my bad situation, yeah go figure i kissed another guy, i seem to be good at that, but i told peter the next day that i was guilty and that i told him i loved him and that i would never want to do that ever again to him. Obviously this boy needs a little more time than a week or a couple of weeks as the matter. I was asking my roommate about it and she said give him a month and i was like what? a month? yeah that'll be the perfect time, get close with me while im packing up to GO HOME! I cant believe peter thinks that i would screw him over just like his ex, i mean of course it was bad and i know that, but at least i told him the truth all in one night unlike his ex and i didnt fuck the guy like his ex did. ya know? GRRRR... hes treating me exactly how he did his ex. I'm trying to keep this friendship relationship calm and rational, but the only time we talk is online. I miss him calling me every day i miss him telling me he loves me. He was the ultimate fairy tale. Why oh why did i have to go and do that to him? Can anyone tell me why? I think i need a hug and just to break down and cry this all out of me for me to feel better, because honestly ever since we broke up i may have been the same on the outside, but on the inside im still crying hard. I'm so miserable right now, i mean im trying to have fun and forget about it and what not, but i just can't help it, I mean he was the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. And for me to loose that is slim to none. MAN, why can't i keep these long relationships? is there really something wrong with me? I really want to keep a relationship longer than 4 months that's for sure. They've gotten close b4 i came here i was with eric for 2 1/2=3 months then peter came along and i was with him for 2 1/2 months. Seems as though that i get bored with them after 2-3 months. eh? lol Well, let me know what you peoples think of this, cause quite frankly i dont know what to do anymore, OH and then we talk online and hes telling me about these girls he's meeting in his new city where hes moving to and im just sitting here like oook then. if your going to talk about your girls then i'll talk about my guys. I just really hope that this relationship is meant to be, you know "if you love someone let them go, if they come back it was meant to be". HE'S EVERYTHING i wanted. Without him im miserable. Absolutley miserable, it may not seem like it when you see me, but once you see me just starring off into the distance im most likley thinking about peter, since he's all i think about anyway. Now that i wrote that i feel a little bit better, i guess i just had to rant. But i still want all your opinions on this please. Current Mood: irate Current Music: laundry, clicking, clock ticking (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
2:11 am	50025,600 Minutes Today at midnight RENT came out in stores all over the country. WHOO HOO. My roommate however, ordered it online so she got it at like 10am this morning and picked it up around 2. We watched it as others anticipated to long for to get it. On to BIGGER news. I don't know what to do. I mean eric dumps me for being down here and then all i think about is him, then i get over him and start dating peter which goes really well. Valentines day roles around and guess who calls me? None other than Eric. I was surprised that he called me since i hadnt talked to him since the beginning of jan.Weird eh? Now he talks to me all the time. What is he trying to say? In other news, I was supposed to go over to peters tonight, but nooo that didnt happen. I was really broken up about it. I know he works long hours and drives all the time that has little space for freedom. I'm wondering if I should even see him anymore. We hardly get to see eachother enough as it is, since its getting busier and what not. I know this is stupid to get upset over, but i really was looking forward to it. If you say your going to hang out with your girlfriend you better mean it. Boys are stupid...throw rocks at them. I guess that's what i get with dating older guys. they have better jobs, but better jobs means working more and less free time. I was crying over it b4 while listening to my disney music. I wish everything was easier, ugh why does this have to be so hard? IDK what to do and at home am i going to be single or still taken? This is such a confusing life. Why IS it so hard? I try to live with as much optomisim as i can. I can only take in so much. If someone asked me do you love peter? I would say yes I do he's a great guy. Then if someone asked me do u love eric? I would say idk, maybe he's a great guy too. Then the tough one would be who do u love more? I dont think i would say either, because i both love them and woah, i love two guys at the same time?...that's weird, really weird. All i know is that when eric called me all those feelings for him came rushing back. That is pretty much why idk what to do. Current Mood: sad Current Music: Sound of clock ticking (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 16th, 2006
1:46 am	What to do? Happy belated valentines day to everyone! My valentines day consisted of me hanging out with my gay co worker jon driving around orlando going to the florida mall and millenia mall. We got the car valet parked at millenia mall. Man these malls are freakin HUGE. I could've sworn i lost at least some weight while walking around the mall. I got my hair cut at the millenia mall, just under REGIS, it was called BISMA. The guy named Edgar used to work for disney cause i told him i work for disney, he said he was pluto height and played rafiki too. He made me get layers in my hair, so that night i was walking around with my hair strait with up-curls. I'm going to try to do the same thing he did tomorrow for work, or should i say later for work lol. Peter didn't even recognize me because i had straight hair. He kept on repeating how great i looked. Man i love that guy. B4 that though when i got home from the mall, i was getting ready for peter to take me out and low and behold who calls the apartment? None other than my ex from back home. ERIC. He asked me if i was pissed at him. And im like no why would i be pissed at you, Then he was saying how im online, but dont answer right away then im like if i dont answer right away im not there and if i do then i am there. I was a bit surprised to hear him call, and im like idk what to say so i said what i could and told him i had a boyfriend and that weve been together since christmas and what not. Why is eric calling me now? he imed me today on yahoo too, then he called me later today too. whats up with that? I mean I do miss the guy, but i think he misses me too. I know he does, he was just beating around the bush. My problem now is, does he want to be in the same spot as peter? Or what? I'm so confused. I mean my heart still skips a beat when i talk to eric. I still like him, and i like peter more, but could I be in two hearts at once? This is definitley a weird time in my life right now. I know i do like going out with guys and exploring which one will treat me well. I have found the "rare" ones once in a while the girls know this. I definitley wasnt looking for anything while i was down here. I think i know why now too. I wasn't looking because i was still sad about the breakup and i wished that when i got home that eric would want to take me back and thats why i was just having flings and heavily flirting with guys off and on again and again. Ugh i need to stop staying UP SO LATE, but thankfully it's thursday and im on floor stock then friday will come too soon and im taking allison(my roommate)she's friends with snowwhite to the airport. I took my friend ashley and she said im in charge of her baby(her hundai box lookin car) lol. It's pretty sweet took a drive in it earlier today. Smooth ride. Tell me what you guys think about this situation. I mean i love peter to death, but then eric happens and its like uh, ok what now, i know he probably just wants to be friends yet, but what if he wants more? I NEED HELP Current Mood: moody Current Music: You're the One that I want (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
12:36 am	Too busy OMG I'm too busy to even look in here anymore. I've been updating a lot more on myspace than i have on here. I think this is loosing touch a lot. Peter and I are still together, and I think we will be until i leave for wisconsin. Latley, I've been getting ER's(early releases) from work cause it's the slow season and the store is so clean that all we have left to do is dust. Eric imed me today and i was a bit shocked to see him online since he NEVER goes online. I haven't been thinking about him since i started dating Peter. woops i almost called him eric. that's bad. uh oh kendra lol. I think im gonna watch a movie b4 i go to bed and sleep on the couch. Went to downtown disney with my new roommate and saved about 80 buckaroos. I bought dani her jonny depp doll, cause i knew that she wanted it really bad and i saw it and i knew i had to get it for her, just a thanks for rooming with her the five months she was here with me. Counting down my birthday, actually Becky has that on her profile for aim, hers says 57 days so that would make it 58 days for me. But im gonna go by hers lol since she's b4 me only by like 14 hours. LOL. My hair is sooo long, i think im going to keep it long till i go home. I dyed it again. it's back to strawberry blonde, my roommates were all dying their hair so i decided to dye mine. And you know what? when i come back home i think im going to become a cosomotologist. Cause i know i love acting, but that's not going to pay the bills, but if i become a beautitican i'll never be without a job. Then i can sing somewhere on the side also do my shows too. Well im gonna get going now. Pop in a movie or something. Congrats to your sister Melissa!!! And sara im glad you and zach are still together, I miss you guys so much I can't wait till i come home. Current Mood: tired Current Music: TV (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 14th, 2006
3:18 am	A night at Pleasure Island My roommate who plays snow white and I went to pleasure island the other night(thursday) because we both hadnt been there in a long time. So we went and it was freakin packed. Three busses came to vista to pick us up. It was insane. When we got there we were trying to find a club to go stamp our hands then go to a more popular club, turns out that all of them were freaking long to get into except for motions which is the hottest club. As we were walking there i could've sworn clear as day I saw my camp director ISIS! WEIRD. Anyway, we were standing in line for motions and we started talking to these 30 year old men from canada that were down here for a buliding convention they were from toronto. Cool guys. Then not even 20 mintues in the club and were dancing right? This guy who was like my dad's age came up to us and started dancing with us and asked us "what are you girls doing dancing a lone?" So then he grabbed me and started dancing with me and dancing how my dad would dance with me, but then he started groping me so i didn't like it very much. Then i told my friend Allison(snow white) that i had to go to the "bathroom". I used it a lot that night. All the guys that were dancing with me were either black, muslim, porterican or as old as my DAD! It's like WTF! Allison got two cuties one of which she went on a date with last night. He was really hot, and i was kind of jealous that i didnt have a hot guy to dance with since he's sick and hacking his lungs out right now. But they danced for like the rest of the night, he ended up being a really nice guy. His name is Kenny, blonde hair blue eyes just a little bit shorter than me. He was also from canada, but from the other side, he was from calgary. I was dancing with a cast member who worked at magic kingdom and he was asking me what my name was, phone number, where i lived. I told him i was from wisconsin, and i told him my name was michelle. There was one other guy i did that too also, he was completley drunk i mean you could totally tell, his eyes were totally glazed over. Speaking of drunk, i had a couple sips of rum and coke, and some vodka and strawberry thing that my neighbor had. Don't worry i didn't get drunk. The last couple songs i danced with my neighbor because i wanted him to get all the creepy guys off of me. So we started dancing and he told me he walked that way because he was headed to another club, but he didnt move or anything and kept on dancing with me. BAD IDEA! He was nice enough to give us and kenny a ride home to his resort. He came over to our apartment to chill for a while which was fine with me. Then he started putting his arm around me and rubbing my arm and trying to hold my hand. I felt fine, but a little uncomfortable. Next he started kissing the back of my neck, and i told him earlier in the club that i was dating someone. And he asked me how long ive been dating him and i told him since christmas. He said hell thats not a boyfriend that's like what 2-3 weeks? (btw today is 3 weeks for peter and I tee hee) I was like yes it is. and hes like no a boyfriend is someone you have for like 4-5months, then i asked him ok how long have you been with a girl? and he said he was only with her for 3 weeks. Show's how much he knows about relationships. Definitley crossed the line though when he started kissing the back of my neck and snuggling up next to me. then i told him i was tired and that i needed to go to bed, mind you it was like 530 in the morning so i walked into my bedroom with him following me and layed on my stomach and groaned at how tired i was, and he was STILL trying to kiss me and started getting really close to my lips and i turned my head the other way. I asked him "you really like me dont you?" and he said yeah and i was like, but you know im taken. And with that he kissed me on the cheek and said goodnight. Knowing him, he came to my apartment tonight just to say hi, but he was drunk as hell so he was all kissy again, but he just kissed me on the forehead. I dont think he understands that im taken. Maybe I need to get peter to come over here and have the door closed. tee hee I just know that whenever Kevin(the neighbor who likes me) is around me i really want peter here so that he can protect me from him. DAMN these good looks of mine. I can't control this at all can i? I guess he wants what he can't have and he thinks that im going to make out with him instead of peter. Yeah right! I love peter too much to do that. I like it though that peter lets me go out and have fun instead of one of those guys who are like there are going to be guys all over you. And there were, but peter was like, your coming home to me and not to them, just think of that. I really hope he gets better quick and soon so i can take him out to PI and put the moves on him and go back to his place and well i think you can finish the sentence yourself. tee hee  I finally went to work today from 545-2, but i got an ER because the store was so freakin clean and yes im still at mousegear at epcot. Cool huh? All we pretty much had to do to go home early was straighten home dec which is coffe mugs, and picture frames. So most of us got out at 1:15am. I got a ride home so i didnt have to take that damn bus. Alright well im going to bed It's freakin late and im very tired. Tell me what you guys think. Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: Endless Love (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 28th, 2005
12:45 pm	So this is Love...mhmmhm Ahhh Florida. Disney dreams really do come true. It is very true of what they say at how people have met their soul mates down here. I know i sure have. After last night I know that for sure. I know that ive been seeing a couple guys since ive been down here. I called peter last night around 1130 when he got off of work and he picked me up at my apt and we went to walmart to get some cake and milk. OMG it was soo good. We had chocolate truffle cake. Regardless, his ex stole all of his silverware. What a selfish bitch! She is really a greedy girl. I mean you would think that he would have to eat with a utensil for cereal, soup, etc. I called the internship program people last night after i got off of work and turns out that they were closed so i left a message asking where im going to be working in operations and where im going to be living, I sure dont have a place to live here, unless i live with peter. Now, THAT would be interesting. Last night with him was so incredibly romantic. He was doing his usual kissing on the back and up the arm to my neck and to my cheek working his way to my lips. Just writing about this i can feel him doing it. I was so content with him last night that I never wanted to let him go. You know whats really hot about him? Speaking to me in russian. Theres just something about a guy who speaks a different launguage that makes them hotter, even if it is a european accent. Last night was just so great that i had to say te amo, or chi amo(porteguese) and he said i love you too in russian. Oomg it was so great. I can really be myself with him. He makes me laugh, i make him laugh, we both satisfy eachother. I love being with him. Of course i still think of eric, but eric is very fuzzy whereas, peter is coming into the picture. He's been on my mind ever since the first time we've spent the night together at his parents house. Im going to see him tonight and i can't wait. Tomorrow were goin into mousegear and seeing everyone who works there and maybe going to see the fireworks. That's all for now. Current Mood: loved Current Music: Cosby Show~TV (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 27th, 2005
6:57 pm	Merry Christmas! Well as most of you know, peter and I are kinda seeing eachother. I mean we're definitley friends with benefits, if you count the more than kissing and fooling around. lol. He's like the most romantic guy a girl could ever meet. I don't know if there are any guys like him in wisconsin at all, unless you have to look really hard, or if i have been with them and just wouldn't let them get that close with me. I like him a lot. I'm starting to get attached which i dont really want to do, but he's just such a great guy. Last night I went to see "the producers" with him. MAN that was a GREAT movie. I'm now counting the days until it comes out on dvd. Cool huh? I'm actually listening to the soundtrack right now. The movie was so good that i was laughing till i was crying. lmao. Tonight peter is picking me up and probably gonna hang out at his apt fall asleep there and go to play at epcot(thats what us disney people call going to a park) or we call it that we're going to a park. Cool huh? Anyway, we're gonna go into mousegear and hold hands then he also said,"yeah and lets be all over eachother., just think of the gossip that'll be going around work." lol I was like oh yeah lol. So, i hope all of your christmases were great. I know mine was hehe. Peter has been on my mind for the past couple days, but how coud it not? I mean we spend a lot of time together. He's so affectionate. Kisses everywhere not just the lips. I would assume its every girls dream to have this guy. I dont understand how is ex couldve cheated on him. He's such a great guy, and omg waits on me hand and foot. Pays for everything. Even when i offer to pay he's like no its on me. I was like oook. So, i think thats all for now, have a happy holidays and happy new year if i dont blog b4 then! 2006 Current Mood: weird Current Music: When you got it flaunt it~Producers (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
2:03 am	Freedom You know what I love about Florida and being on this internship? All the freedom you want. No one wondering where you are, no curfew, no need to be home at a certain time. Ah yes this is the life. Now, if i only had my own place a steady job and a car id be set for life. I think thats what i need to do in the near future. So, last night i worked from 215pm-1030pm wow! talk about a long shift. After the shift i asked if peter still wanted to hang out(he had just gotten out of work) and he said sure, i actually suggested it the night b4. So, he picked me up from vista and went to his parents house, which isnt in orlando, it's in kissimmee. Which is about a half hour drive from orlando or where i live i should say. He picked me up with his guest relations costume on and DAMN i have to say everytime i see him in that outfit i just have to drool. I can't help it that he looks so damn hot in it. Then i didn't notice until last night that he had gotten his hair cut which made him look even hotter. We went to his parents house to hang out and let me tell you, i thought i got out of the disney themed areas...i was wrong. You walk into that house and everything from celing to floor is decorated in disney stuff! I asked peter where his parents were and he told me that they were on a 7day disney cruise. HAHA go figure. Anyway, we were trying to find something to watch, actually it was me trying to find something and let alone more than half of the movies were disney movies, classics too. We watched SHREK2 and were just hanging out laughing and what not. After last night i feel so much more open with him and very comfortable around him. Knowing that he fell in love with me flatters me a lot, but i dont love him, i like him a lot though. And he understands that. He also understands that i love eric. That was basically the topic of the night last night. I mean since he's a guy why not just ask him why do guys do this and that, ya know? So, we would make out for a bit and then we'd just lay there and i'd be thinking about eric. The sadder part is though whenever i was making out with peter i was thinking about eric. Is that so wrong? Wow, i just thought of this now...peter is acting a lot like eric is/was. Taking the time to get to know me then when hes got me all to himself he makes his move. Of course when i was with eric it was ME who made the first move. haha. We were in his old bedroom and just talking and then making out and talking again and tickling eachother. We really bonded that night. He's just so easy to talk to and hes one of a kind, i mean theres no one else like him. I mean ok, yeah hes a guy and of course he's gonna wanna piece of ass what guy doesnt? For a while though, while he was fondling me, i didn't feel very comfortable and i know this is rude, but i drifted off and started thinking about eric again, I just couldn't get him out of my head! And low and behold here's peter going down on me for like EVER. I had to push him away to get him to stop. He apparently loves it down there as well as eric did. They are very similar im starting to see. Except, Peter is very affectionate and just leaves little kisses and tickles then his kisses are unbelieveable. At first, i was just like ok he's kissing me, ooh and theres the tounge, alright, we're kissing this is nice. Then hed do something with his mouth like opening it up more and i just got really into it. Both of us were moaning when we were making out with eachother. I slept in his old bed and it felt like i was back home in my bed or in a hotel, it was heaven for me. Tonight i have to sleep on these brick vista beds. It came to the point though at his house that i actually thought i was back in wisconsin in my own bed and i felt someone holding me and almost thought it was eric, then i opened my eyes and realized that was in florida. Felt a little disapointed, but not THAT disapointed. I was still glad that there was a boy holding me and caressing me throughout the night. I LOVE BOYS! Today while peter and i were hanging out we watched tv then we ordered pizza and watched hercules and then peter started breaking out in a rash all over his body, he thinks its probably the sheets that he slept in last night with me, then our second guess was that it was me, but i highly doubt it. So he's going to the doctor tomorrow morning to figure out what is, but he put calimone lotion on to sooth the itching. Alright, well i think that;s the longest journal ive posted so far while ive been down here in sunny florida. NOT! its freakin cold out and its hardly ever sunny! tell me what you guys think about this. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Roudolf red nose reindeer (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
1:11 am	To be or Not to be UGH! Life is so complicated sometimes! Today i woke up just like any normal day and got on my laptop as usual cause i love this thing to death. As I was chilling here in the apartment the phone rang and turns out it was my dad. He gave me a speech about coming home in three weeks and how i dont know what to do for the rest of my life, How im 20years old and i need to figure that out. My parents want me to stay down here cause they think that there is more down here than there is up there. Which im starting to think is true. I hate it when parents are right. But they do make points. So i was talking to my roommate dani about what my dad said and shes like do what you think is right. It came to the point where i was crying to her about it. Then i stopped crying and said, "you know what? if they dont want me home, then im not gonna come home." Thats right Im not coming home. I called the front desk and asked if i could still extend my program, They said yes and said thatd id be getting a letter about housing in a day or two. I'll be staying here till May doing operations. My mom said that if i stayed that she would fly me home for a week or something similar to that. I just want to talk to my family again. I know my parents want whats best for me and I totally understand that, but can't they understand that it takes time for this to happen? I feel this is the best bet because they will be more happy with me when i come home in may and not in three weeks. Parents sometimes, I tell ya! One of my neighbors(tim) was saying how my family was mean and he was like you can come live in mass with me and my family, we'll love you and be nice to you and not mean. haha. Ok well im gonna get going it's bed time gotta work late tomorrow. 630p-1230a. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Jingle Bell Rock (Comment on this)
Monday, December 12th, 2005
1:21 am	Awkward Ok so sunday was very interesting. I went to the movies at downtown disney with peter, yes the guy who used to work at mousegear with me. We went to go see 'lion witch and the wardrobe", it was a good movie. I dont know if i'd see it again in theatres like i did with phantom of the opera. I'm gonna go see The producers this saturday. I'm so excited! Im gonna see it with myself if i have to. So anyway, peter and i were talking and how he met john travolta and how he asked him where the bathroom was. Then the movie started and as the movie started he started tickling me and was like 'come here you" and puts his arm around me so i went along with it and snuggled up to him for a while. Then my neck started hurting and i told him i was fine. Then as the movie went on i put my feet up on the chair and he puts his hand on my leg! So then i put my feet down and crossed my legs so that hed get his hands off of my leg haha. Then later he kissed my cheek, after the movie was done, we were walking out of the theatre and i looked to my right to see if he was there but he wasnt then turns out he was on the OTHER side of me and told him that i thought i lost him then he grabs my ass and was like ooops the guy behind you did that, and i was like no that was so you. Then we get into his car and were talking about the movie then he sighs and asks me when im going home and i said jan 3rd and hes like are you ready to go home and i said yeah i miss my family, friends, and snow. That's right i miss the snow! Then as were like 2 blocks away from vista im trying to pull my hair away and he tickles me and says :your open" and sticks his tounge down my throat and we're in his car and i pull him away and say "peter were in a car! people can see!" and he said, thats just incase i dont see you again. lol yeah so that was my day today. Im talking to my neighbor because he said that one of his roommates had a "booty" call comin over so im keepin him company. Talking about home and what not. Well i hope to see you guys soon!!Miss ya Current Mood: giggly Current Music: Comedy Christmas Music (Comment on this)
Monday, December 5th, 2005
2:05 am	Ho Hum I'm beginning to miss home a lot. I think it's because of the holidays and christmas is always a family holiday and since it'll be my first one away from home i'll be kind of sad, but i know i have a home here too. Guess what? I got my new laptop and it's amazing i love it. Haha it's the same as Danis. Sweet huh? Eric called me the night that i got this laptop and he said that he got my package and liked it a lot. I guess he had his eye on the cd that i gave him for a while. I just saw it chillin there in wal*mart and immedeitatley thought of him and thought that would be perfect for him to have. I'm watching pleasantville right now, just a little tv on for some music b4 bed. I got home around 1ish and its now 10 after 3am. I love staying up late. It's so great. I need to give my mom a call later today. Her birthday is today and she's 48, but she looks somewhere in her late 20s. WEIRD! So auditions for characters are this thursday at either 10am or 4pm. I think im gonna go to the 10am audition just to get it done and over with. If i get a character im staying and if not im going home. I really want to be a princess and the princess i want to be is snow white, otherwise if they give me any other character i'll do it too. My mom wants me to stick it out till may because then when i come home, all my friends will be home from school and then i'll be 21 so i can go out drinking with my friends. Seems like forever 21 seemed like an eternity to come around. I can't believe i only have four months left. Well tomorrow will be december 6th and that will be exactly 5 months until my birthday. Ok, im ready to go home, it's time for a change, I mean when you are down here for 4 months that's a long time. I miss the look of the snow, i miss my friends, i also miss that one guy whom im inlove with yes you guessed it eric. I mean i know im only 20 but true love can happen anytime right? Current Mood: tired Current Music: music from tv (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
7:32 pm	Hoplessly Devoted Whats up guys? So u wanna know whats weird? It's actually COLD here. Probably not as cold as wisconsin but im wearing turtlenecks underneath my clothes and my costume no doubt. But anyway, latley ive been having dreams about eric. First, I dreamt that i was biking up this huge hill and i as i got up it i saw on one side of the street a party was going on and then on the other side of the street which was my relatives house and my theatre professor was standing in the middle of the street talking to someone, and he had a drink in his hand(go figure), then i saw eric and he was walking towards me and he was talking over me and as we were about to embrace my alarm clock went off. Then i had another dream with him he was standing on the grooms side smiling and i was at the end of the isle in my wedding dress and smiling back at him but i wasn't moving. So i have no idea what those dreams meant. But then i've been seeing his name every where and guys who look like him. Can you say inlove? Ugh if only he'd call, ive left more than enough voicemails leaving my number behind so he can call it, but i think because its long distance he doesnt want to pay the long price ya know? I wonder what would happen if i came home and i called him. I always wonder if he's dating anyone, probably not because of school, show, and work. My hair is so long what do u think i should do with it? im thinking a wave or something. ok well i think im gonna go eat supper now and watch some tv or pop in a movie or something. Tomorrow im working 930am-330p then im going to see RENT! HECK YA! then thanksgiving i work 8pm=2am but i have off friday and saturday which is good because i know how the store is gonna be. But thanksgiving day im gonna spend time with my roommates. So, if you want to comment on this i'd greatly appreciate it thanks a lot guys i love ya all. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Tv (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 13th, 2005
8:26 pm	deepest thoughts from my heart Let me know what you guys think after you read this: Today was the last day for food and wine festival at epcot. Yesterday and today were extremly busy with people. It was insane! I have off next wednesday and thursday thank god. My cell phone is now at home as most of u know. For christmas im getting a laptop just like danis as so as im using right now. I think i'll be on that night and day. haha. I extended my program for either a character or operations person, and i told my mom if i dont get the roles i want im coming home and working at kohls or something. I've been thinking, a lot, and I know that's not really good when you are away from home. But you know who i miss a lot? Eric. Yes eric. Hes just so great idk if there is anyone else like him. He fit so perfectly with me dont you guys agree? We're still friends. Nick i miss too, but he's just a fling down here since the dating thing didnt work out too well. I reall wish I could talk to you guys one on one about this, now i can and i hope you reply to me about this. The thing is im not happy. I'm happy with what i am, but not who i am, mostly because idk who i am yet. I still have to find her. Am I a movie star or what? That's a big question in my book. I just want to be good at something and have everyone be awed at what i do. Our locks got changed today again because Jen moved out. She got all of her hours in for school (300) and 12 credits she needed. I would leave too if i had that. She also worked at PI so she didnt have the greatest hours. Well, hopefully someone will read this and give me some advice, i just want to know what to do someone to hug me and tell me that its alright and that im not a lone. Tell me what you guys think. Thanks love ya all Current Mood: exanimate Current Music: People Talking (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
4:22 pm	Content So im reading everyone elses entrys of what i can see and Melissa is depressed, Jenny is mad because of chemistry, and sara is just busy with the show. I can understnad that we are all busy, I cant believe i actually have time to write in this journal. I'm in the computer lab checking my e-mail and just browsing the internet. Nick went to Nashville for a couple days. I'm wearing one of his favorite shirts that still smells like him. mmhmm! I need to do a load of laundry, so i think im going to wash and iron his shirt. Other than that, Halloween was awesome. I dont have my cell phone ne more, if you want to hear more about it you'll have to give me a call on my house phone or find a time to catch me online. (407)560-2280 ext. 1202. I suggest getting a calling card. I was Miss America for halloween. And ive never gotten hit on so much in my entire life in one night! It was fun going to PI to see everyone dressed up and see who they were. Our store just got in the new star wars movie and chicken little merchandise. Also, we got thanksgiving mickey and minnie. Minnie is scented that smells like apple pie. Yum. Eric, yes THE ERIC called me last saturday wondering if i was still alive because of the hurricane. HAHA. earlier that day i was wondering to my mom if he even cared about me anymore, i guess he still does. He goes "are ya still alive?" I'm like "yah" duh. lol. Well, have fun guys whatever you do. Ciao Current Mood: calm Current Music: cell phone (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
7:39 pm	Chasing/Chaser So this is an interesting week. I'm so excited for my family to come well kayla, karlie, and mom. They are staying in Chicago tonight and arriving around noon tomorrow. I got off of work. One of my co-workers took my shifts for thur and friday. So im excited. I dont know which park i want to take my family too, probably mgm, but i also wnat to take them to Epcot. I'm gonna take them to Pleasure Island and see the comedy club. I'm going to give them a time of their life. I booked them into the All-star sports resort. They should have fun in there. I'm so excited to see them. I havent seen them since i left on august 29. On the other hand, I am still chasing boys and the boys are chasing me. One of which is still trying to chase me and I keep making up excuses to not let him go out with me. Peter isnt really chasing after me, but after i told him that nick and i werent exclusive anymore, i think he's forming a plan. haha. So,basically the boys who are chasing me are peter, santos, and nick. Ok so its just three, but im only chasing two. Peter and Nick. Dani is trying to make a pizza and she thinks she made it too wet because theres too much water that she put on. My hair is really long its down to my shoulders already. I saw the beach boys last night at epcot with jen, dani, stacie, and tim(our next door neighbor). It was awesome I took lots of pictures. Well I think thats all for now. Current Mood: excited Current Music: Time of my life~Dirty Dancing (Comment on this)
Friday, October 21st, 2005
9:54 pm	Well, as you all know Nick and I are seeing eachother, but the other day i asked him if he wanted to date and at first he was like let me think about it, then later he said yes. So for about a week we went out, but it really didnt feel like it. On Monday we did it again, it felt so good, OMG he's so amazing. I'm definitley not going to regret this one at all. So anyway, last night I had to work from 715-2am and on my break i called him to see what was up. and He was being all mean to me like saying he didnt want to have sex with me again for a long time and how he didnt want to be attached anymore, he said he was a slippery guy. I was like yeah i can tell, man i was so mad i wanted to hang up the phone, but i didnt. Hes like i dont think its going to work out, and i dont want to hurt you. I knew it wasnt going to work out. Meh, sometimes I wonder whats wrong with me why aren't I married yet or why can't i keep a long lasting relationship? I wonder why i never keep a boyfriend for very long, sometimes i feel like a tramp and all I feel like doing is crying cause theres really nothing else i can do about it. So last night I was a little depressed, then this morning i go off to work at 1045-515 and in my break i texted peter telling him what happened last night and then on my second break i looked at my phone and there was two missed calls and a voicemail. I figured it'd be peter because i told him about nick. So i looked at my phone and of course peter did call me, then i listened to my voicemail, it wasn't peter it was...yup you guessed it NICK! he called to apologize for being a jerk last night saying how he had too much to drink he sounded like he was an idiot for doing that to me. I think he knows what kind of girl he was loosing. Not too much going on here in florida, except hurricane Wilma. Sitting at home on a friday night listening to Disney music. Current Mood: lazy Current Music: Baby Mine~Dumbo (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 13th, 2005
2:09 pm	No longer a cock tease Some say I used to be a cock tease, well not anymore. Not after last night. It was so amazing. I never knew it was going to feel so good. I'm glad he used protection. Now, I know what you guys are thinking omg kendra why didnt you wait and why did you do it now. All I can say is that I'm not going to regret it and that I wanted to do it, I seriously wouldn't do anything that i wouldnt feel comfortable doing would i? No, so stop telling the computer why and stop hitting your head. This is MY LIFE guys so shut your trap! lol. Well, tonight I work from 7pm-2am its gonna suck, but I guess i can handle it. Watching Little Mermaid right now. I'm gonna make some lunch now, if you have anything to say to me please comment. But I kind of knew i was gonna get laid b4 i left anyway. LOL. TTYL Current Mood: devious Current Music: Music from the Little Mermaid (Comment on this)
Friday, October 7th, 2005
9:48 pm	Ms. Pimpette So latley, ive been known as Ms. Pimpette. A couple nights ago I went to go see the Commadores at epcot. They were awesome. It made me miss eric alot too cause i remember him singing to me in his car that one song that the commadores do. "Once, twice, three times a lady" :( aww. I dont know what the deal is with him anyway. Oh well, I'm having fun with the guys down here. They are very hot and very nice. Most of my friends(girls) say that they are only in it for a peice of ass. We're watching cinderella right now in our apartment. And dani is talking about making a 2005 cinderella. Haha. Last night I went to wal*mart with Peter, Stacie, and Dani. I used to work with Peter and he definitley has a thing for me. He's pretty good looking himself. Not to mention. Then later I went to PI with one of my next door neighbors courtland and his friend James. It was fun, but not as fun as going with a lot more people. Last night when I got home my new roommate Lindsey and her fiance Ken were sitting on the couch watching the breakfast club. so I went to talk to them for a while. And Lindsey was like how was PI? and somehow we got on the topic of guys, maybe it was because we were watching the breakfast club. I got to the point where that since Ive been down here I've been hit on every day. I told them how eric hit on me and was all over me, then how i liked chris one of my next door neighbors, then how i met peter at mouse gear and how i started flirting with him, then when i met nick and started to flirt and hang out with him and how i like him a lot and starting to get very attached to him. So yeah it's been a fun filled month and I have 3 in a half more to go! Hell ya! Well, I think that sums up my days. Tonight I'm gonna hang out with nick at his place. That should be fun hehe. if ya know what I mean. hehe.Ok so thats all for now. TATA DARLINGS Current Mood: content Current Music: So this is Love-Cinderella (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 24th, 2005
5:43 pm	I'll pleasure you're island A couple nights ago has been nothing but flirting @ and outside of work. Idk how I get these guys, but man are they hjot or what? Lol. Afer a long six hours of work Liz invited me to a party w/some guys from chatam. I came home and changed and they picked me up, but we didn't go to chatam, instead we went to Jungle Jims kareoke bar. I sang "Honesty" w. the chatam boys. hehe Go me! I'm glowing right now. After we were there for 10min we decided to go to pleasure island Hell ya! I had a blast there. Except when I was by myself creepy guys we're coming up to me and asking me if i wanted to dance. Liz and I were dancing and two guys asked us if we wanted to dance. And liz said to them that we were lesbians! LOL. What's even funnier is that the guys didn't know what a lesbian was so liz and i had to explain and luckily 2 min after that happened the chatam boys were there with us and we were dancing with them. THANK GOD! I was dancing with Nick. He's a cutie, he's a little taller than i am, oh btw when we were on our way to jungle jims and P.I. I had a little alcohol ;) ;) It was just a budlite if you're wondering. I only had one bottle and i didn't even finish it, but i did chug it. Ne way, I was dancing with nick he can play the piano so I lent him one of my sheet music that i brought down here to play. As I was dancing with him I kept on looking @ him and how much i wanted to kiss him. He must have had the same idea and we ended up making out for a while in the club(motion). It was great, but he was a little bit drunk. lol I didn't care I know he's a good guy when he's sober. The other people w/ us we're adam, arte, and blake. Hanging out at the apartment or going out on the town with new friends, I'm definitley going to have a lot of pen-pals when i leave this internship. Tonight Dani, Stacie and I might go to epcot to go shopping and maybe ride test track and sorin, cause i've never been on sorin. Plus, I want to bug a co-worker who's leaving to go to guest services. He got promoted to it like a couple weeks ago. I'm also going to a movie with him on tuesday. I met yet another guy today while i was relaxing by the pool. My roommates say that im the pimp of the apartment. One of my other roommates was saying that im the biggest cock tease that she's ever met. LMAO On top of all this i definitley lost a lot of weight. Some of my shorts that i brought down here i had to suck in to wear and now they are too big on me! yay! let's just hope i can stay that way. 6 days from now im going to be here a month. I'm lovin every minute that im down here. Of course I miss home once in a while, but I have to realize that this is the greatest thing to ever happen to me. This is a dream come true with me being a disney freak and all... Current Mood: flirty Current Music: I'll make love to you(Boys 2 men) (Comment on this)